I have a really big heart, and I dont like saying no or sticking up for myself. I like pleasing others. Well today i was pushed a little to far...
I had this convo with my boyfriend (who i love with all my heart) Im like so um ya thanx for calling me back. hes like um well i have to do this and that and i just got home (that wasnt true cause he was on msn like 25-30 min before we had this convo) Well im like it doesnt take six hours to phone me and say hi hun ill phone u later cause im kinda busy i have alot of things to do. well then u can phone me later when ur not so busy or ill talk to u tomorrow. hes like k wutever. After that convo i sat and cried on my bed, i kept playing wut he had said to me on msn..." U know we dont need to talk everyday u know… i cant belive he said that. Him and i always talk... I thought to myself wut's wrong with me, well thers nothing wrong with me... im like y am i putting up with this i dont need this from him i dont need this from anybody. I dont need to be treated like a doormat... so he phones like two hours later and hes like ya um i think that we dont feel the same way about each other and i think that we arent on the same page in our life so ya i dont think i can really go out with u anymore... im like ok then if u cant give me wut i need from u (love,comunication,and surport) then i guess its over... hes like well i dont know… im like well u need to know and if u cant then its over.
you need t o stick up for ur self. you cant keep trying to please and make everybody happy,u end up hurting ur self and u keep hurting ur self... please dont do wut i did and keep hurting ur self its not worth it.
Kayla
