I know what it's like. I've been down that road and back again. People keep telling me over and over that it will be alright and things can only get better. And I know how little that helps. When your that depressed, hearing about how things will eventually get better, doesn't help. I'm ready to die, I don't want to have to wait for this "eventually," I need it to be better right now. You feel unloved and completely worthless and when your that down, you dont think straight, your only thinking about the peacfulness your death will bring to you. You can tell this to people and all they do is ask if your doing it for attention and tell you that your being a selfish coward, which just makes you feel even worse. All I'm here to do is tell you that I understand, I've been where you are many times. I was reading a book and found this really great quote that I think you may need to think about, hope you enjoy it, "Life is like a gameshow, sometimes you get a big boat and others you only get some crummy carwax, all you can do is spin the wheel again and hope for a better prize." Trust me, death isn't better than carwax. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And when you're feeling worthless and unloved, know that your not alone and that you really ARE love because I love you. I love you with all the love a teenager can have. And I know you'll be alright. I believe in you.
Ashtyn
